Nobody talks to me anymore…

Really, no one says hi, no one asks me questions. It’s as if they’re avoiding me and that could be. After all, since it looks like I’ve been demoted, no one wants to catch that bug.

The funny thing, I ended up giving two informal sales presentations on the company to prospective clients today – not that management would really want to know that.

One of the hardest decisions we ever make in life is leaving a long-term relationship that just isn’t working. When attempts at repairing and working out issues aren’t working, it may be time to examine moving on. We are emotional creatures, and when our heartstrings are tied to those of another, separating from that person can feel like an act of courage. It is not something most of us will take lightly, and many of us will struggle with our desire to stay in a relationship that is unfulfilling simply in order to avoid that pain. We may question whether the happiness we seek even exists, and we may wonder if we might be wiser to simply settle where we are, making the best of what we have.

On the one hand, we almost relish the idea that true happiness is not out there so that we can avoid the pain of change. On the other hand, we feel within ourselves a yearning to fulfill our desire for relationships that are vital and healing. Ultimately, most of us will follow this call, because deep within ourselves we know that we deserve to be happy. We all deserve to be happy, no matter where we find ourselves in this moment, and we are all justified in moving, like plants toward the light, in the direction that leads to our greatest fulfillment. First, though, we may need to summon the courage to move on from the relationship that appears to be holding us back.

Taking the first steps will be hard, but the happiness we find when we have freed ourselves from a situation that is draining our energy will outshine any hardship we undergo to get there. Keeping our eyes trained on the horizon, we begin the work of disentangling ourselves from the relationship that no longer fits. Every step brings us closer to a relationship that will work, and the freedom we need to find the happiness we deserve.

Prayer is when we ask the universe for something, and meditation is when we listen..

Within the religious culture I live in, prayer and praying for the things one wants are big. But we have to be reminded at the pulpit to pray for gratitude. Years ago I was given a book called, Do Your Prayers Bounce Off the Ceiling?. The main point was learning to listen for the answers to prayers.

Listening at all times can be beneficial. If we really listened to our bodies, we would probably move more and eat less. Listening to our spouses and children would strengthen our family relationships. It’s amazing what you hear when you listen at work or in public – somethings you don’t want to know, others you’re glad you heard. The question then becomes, do you act on what you hear? And how do you act on what you hear?

What if what you hear is a lie? Do you correct the situation or just let it go? Or does it become one of the situations where you pray for guidance?

I think it’s time to listen to the universe, God, and my inner self…

and I tried to take a picture but it didn’t work well from a moving car.

April 16, 2008
Love In Fairness
Pisces Daily Horoscope

You may be particularly attentive to the needs of your loved ones today as you see how they are intertwined with your own. Because you’re likely feeling accommodating and helpful, you may feel compelled to examine your decisions in light of how they will affect the people that are close to you. Others may perceive you as fair-minded and cooperative, appreciating your concern for their welfare, and express their gratitude by doing all they can to support your endeavors. As you consider how the choices you make will impact your life plan, consider also how the lives of those who rely on your love and support will be shaped by those choices. You may discover today that you can strive for your goals while simultaneously helping the people you care about reach theirs.

Understanding that the needs of the people important to you may often differ from your own can help you make decisions that are equitable and acceptable to all affected by them. It’s easy to make choices based on what we want and what will most positively impact our own lives without considering our loved ones. However, when you are accommodating the notions and desires of your family and friends, you naturally act more fairly and cooperatively. They will appreciate your willingness to treat their needs as importantly as you would treat your own, and you will have the pleasure of seeing your decisions making most people happy. When you consider the needs of your loved ones as you move through life today, your decisions will have far-reaching benefits.

For my husband: I’m so sorry that we weren’t able to spend today together. You’re right, I put the office and my parent’s family before you way too often and it’s time to stop putting the interests of the office before my own. I’m doing my best to grow up and I’m working to make the next 21 years better than the last. Although I’m not complaining about the time we’ve spent together so far. Thank you for knowing my needs better than I do and making sure that someone is always looking out for my best interests.

So Friday night, I get home from work to find that I have a hot bubble bath waiting for me. After about 30 minutes in the tub, I hear the doorbell ring and it’s the masseuse. I slept like the dead on Friday night. About 10 am DH wakes me up to tell me that I need to get going if I’m going to make it to Needlepoint class (my dad gave me 4 classes for Christmas and I’m just now getting out to take them). I arrived at the class to find that only 2 of the 8 made it to class so I got a lot of personal attention. Then I went and had my nails done (since it was a prom night, I got to have the salon owner do my nails and had a great talk about the issues with owning a business.

Some weekends you just need to take time for yourself and relax.

It’s amazing how many cares disappear when you decide not to be something, but to be someone.
– Coco Chanel

How many people identify themselves by what they do rather than who they are. So who are you? Who do you want to be? What do you want to be doing? What are you asking the universe to give you?

Yep, I took my brain home and several other personal items. Seems there isn’t as much room in my new cubicle as there was in my office. The desk space isn’t nearly the same but I’ll get used to it. I do have more usable wall space and it makes sense to have the entire account management team in one area. The only thing I’m really upset about is how it was communicated to me. I had been led to believe that I would be trading offices with the account management team manager. After all, I’ve had an office for close on 11 years now. Then this morning the office manager asks me if I’m packed for my move yet.
“What move?”
“Didn’t they tell you, you’re moving to the cubicle across the wall from C?”
No, didn’t know. So I get back to my office to find that my computer has finally booted up (takes 10 to 15 minutes every morning, doesn’t take half that time when it’s not connected to the network, IT can’t figure it out. He didn’t believe me at first until I demonstrated with the cable hooked and unhooked.) There is an email from my supervisor announcing the change and apologizing for the short notice. I do really wish that they had given me one of the cubicles that would put my back to the east wall. Instead, my back faces the entire room, and my screen is visible to everyone. Oh well, it just means that, until the Flex/IT chick is back from her leave, I’ll be inadvertently sharing HIPAA information of co-workers with everyone who looks at my screen while passing my desk not to mention being in a public area when co-workers want to discuss issues with their own medical claims.

“We promise according to our hopes and perform according to our fears.”
— Francois, Duc de La Rochefoucauld

“Remember always that you have not only the right to be an individual; you have an obligation to be one. You cannot make any useful contribution in life unless you do this.” — Eleanor Roosevelt

“It doesn’t matter how strong your opinions are. If you don’t use your power for positive change, you are, indeed, part of the problem.” — Coretta Scott King

“Luck is the by-product of busting your fanny.” — Don Sutton