Saving things for later is another form of procrastination

For Mothers Day my husband gave me a gift basket which included a bath bomb.  I had never had a bath bomb before but it looked like a larger version of the bath cubes I used to have which took forever to dissolve.  In my mind, I planned to save it for later.  Save it for a time when I would take a really long soak.  

Today I finished a fantastic leadership/public speaking course called leadership from the heart.  My feet were sore, my voice was shot, I was physically drained and still on an emotional high.  I realized this would be the perfect time for that long soak in the tub.  I turned on the water and dropped the bath bomb in.

It was a bomb, alright! There was a plop and a POP!  The bath bomb exploded and the scent of wildflowers filled the room. 

I realized that I had mistaken what the gift really was.  I had preconceived notions which limited my desire to use it.  I thought it was going to fizz and take a long time to dissolve.  Instead, it was quick and because I was not mindful in the moment of it’s use, I missed seeing it explode, I heard it and saw/smelled the result. 

Since I was still in that coachable mindset, I saw the parallels.  How many times have I procrastinated things thinking that they would be long, arduous processes?  What if that was incorrect thinking?  What if things things I’ve been thinking are big hairy monsters are actually cute little puppies run through my scary filter? How many times have I missed things because I was not fully present in the moment? 

Even worse, how many times have I judged people from things in my past experience instead of who they are really?  How many times have I stopped seeking to understand based on something they said or did that triggered me?  And turning that around, how many times have others stopped listening to me because they judged me?  

To end on a lighter note, I will definitely be getting more bath bombs and using them frequently. 

How dangerous is the phrase “Not Enough?”

According to the Soul Sunday article sent out by Oprah, the two most dangerous words in the English language are “Not Enough.”  The first thing that jumps to mind when seeing those words is physical – not enough money, not enough house, not enough cars. The danger trying to have enough that way can lead to crushing debt if done wrong.  However just as dangerous is the mental “not enough” –  not thin enough, not pretty enough, not good enough.  These are things that suck our souls.  They lead to despair and depression and given enough time can lead to unhealthy habits like constant fad dieting, unsuitable companions who feed the ego at first but never reach a level of partnership in the relationship, and the habit of unhealthy self criticism.  In addition, according to the guest on Oprah, since 9/11/01 we have also added a level of fear to the refrain of “not enough.”  We’ve seen that we aren’t safe and that has been cemented through the tough economic times of the past several years – deep down we know that everything we have could be lost in a moment. 

The fear of loss forces us to wear masks in public, to hide the face of the stranger (as Billy Joel called it).  But when we hide the vulnerability we cut off part of ourselves and we limit our access to creativity.  We lock away the part that would allow us to expand and reach and try things we’ve never tried.  We need to push past the fear, realize it’s okay to fail, open ourselves to possibilities  – all the clichés used by motivational speakers which wouldn’t keep cropping up if they weren’t true.  Find the part that feels you are not enough, admit that it may be right in that area and decide if it is worth taking the time to improve but look at all the other areas where not only are you enough but you have abundance to share.  Move past the scarcity mentality and reach for the blessings the universe has prepared for you.  Good things come when we ask for them.

And the new year starts – A Guilt Free January Fail

Just so you know for the past 2 years, I’ve focused on finishing things I’ve started with maybe one or two small starts for breaks or obligation pieces. The WIP list is under 40 and I’m feeling good about how close to being moved to the FUPPY pile things are getting. With that going on, I thought I could handle a Guilt Free January start, after all, Fire Wings Designs Sentinel has been screaming at me since July (I bought everything to start it at Nashville CATS so that gives some idea to how long I’ve had it).
So I put it up on scroll rods and put in 2 strands and I couldn’t do it anymore. I’m not sure if it’s knowing that I’m starting a medium to large project or working on the scroll rods or something else but, I keep thinking about another piece that is only an hour or two from being completed; including the finishing (I need to go buy some White satin ribbon to keep it from going into the FUPPY pile.)
So maybe I’m finally cured of my completion anxiety?
Or maybe I’m just remembering my last foray into Guilt Free January which resulted in so many of the current WIPs on my list?

Or maybe I’m feeling guilty for having an uncompleted piece that I started as a teenager that has been worked on by 5 generations of the women in my family?

Anyway, we’ll see if moving from scroll rods to bars improves my feelings about the piece.