Saving things for later is another form of procrastination

For Mothers Day my husband gave me a gift basket which included a bath bomb.  I had never had a bath bomb before but it looked like a larger version of the bath cubes I used to have which took forever to dissolve.  In my mind, I planned to save it for later.  Save it for a time when I would take a really long soak.  

Today I finished a fantastic leadership/public speaking course called leadership from the heart.  My feet were sore, my voice was shot, I was physically drained and still on an emotional high.  I realized this would be the perfect time for that long soak in the tub.  I turned on the water and dropped the bath bomb in.

It was a bomb, alright! There was a plop and a POP!  The bath bomb exploded and the scent of wildflowers filled the room. 

I realized that I had mistaken what the gift really was.  I had preconceived notions which limited my desire to use it.  I thought it was going to fizz and take a long time to dissolve.  Instead, it was quick and because I was not mindful in the moment of it’s use, I missed seeing it explode, I heard it and saw/smelled the result. 

Since I was still in that coachable mindset, I saw the parallels.  How many times have I procrastinated things thinking that they would be long, arduous processes?  What if that was incorrect thinking?  What if things things I’ve been thinking are big hairy monsters are actually cute little puppies run through my scary filter? How many times have I missed things because I was not fully present in the moment? 

Even worse, how many times have I judged people from things in my past experience instead of who they are really?  How many times have I stopped seeking to understand based on something they said or did that triggered me?  And turning that around, how many times have others stopped listening to me because they judged me?  

To end on a lighter note, I will definitely be getting more bath bombs and using them frequently. 

So I’m jumping in a little late…

I know that a lot of you are wrapping up the 101 things that you started about 978 days ago.  I’m now at a point where I feel I have enough control over my life situation to focus on creating the a list to work on for the next 2 and 1/2 years.  It was harder than I thought to create the list.  One of the things that I want to do is read at least one business book every 2 months.  I ended up listing out 15 books to be determined since I’m not sure what business books I want to read right now.

I took a gamble with the hobby stuff.  It took me 3.5 years to complete the 100 project challenge and most of what I did in that time was small stuff or finishing.  I’ve set a goal now to finish 4 big projects that I am currently working on (the year of Carousel Horses) and a few other older pieces that are fairly close to being done and just need some focused attention to finish them.

I’ve created a separate page in order to keep track of the goals (the link is over on the right).  The scary thing is that I started 2 weeks ago and I’m already behind.  I’ll catch up on the reading schedule though.  The stitching schedule is actually a little ahead.   A lot of the other stuff will come once I find a job.

Completion Anxiety Strikes Again…

Except this time it’s completion of a class.

I should be studying for my Strategy final (class is staggered with another one so the final for this is Thursday and the next class starts next Thursday). Instead I’ve worked on FireDancer, frogged out a section of my TWRR and redid it, got Winter Carousel Horse ready for the SAL next week, pulled fibers and started Be a Witch, and basically done everything but study.

Can you believe that I lecture on time management and I can’t get my head into my books in order to make the 2 page crib sheet the professor promised we could use?